Brother do you think me a madman?
Father have I let you down again?
Mother do you fear for my future?
Well understand please, if you care to.
Deeper yet, I plead with you to see,
Immerse yourself for once in my world,
Swim in my ocean of hurt.
If you can stand the tide for one night,
Know that I have stood it all my life.
And for the first time as I rove upon the waves of change
I have found that one place where I may finally dock,
That home where I may debark and walk upon shaky legs,
That distant refuge where I can finally rest,
Despite the dreams and memories,
Of storms which shall always haunt me.
Yes, haunted will I always be,
As is the place I have chosen,
To call my own,
In the end I guess I needed this,
That resting place which is so restless,
In as much need of my soul
As I am for a place to leave it.
Finding this may be unexpected,
Looking different than anyone would think.
But it is.
Here is where I want to be.